I have suffered with anxiety for as long as I can remember. Growing up I was always a ‘worrier’. Now that I am older I have learnt how to mange stressful times, but it can still get the better of me every now and then. As I’m going to be blogging whilst travelling, I want to keep it all as honest and as real as possible. I am under no illusion that it is going to be magical 100% of the time, so I don’t want to pretend that it is. I want to document my travels and keep the experiences as real and as raw as possible.
So the first part of travelling, for me, is the anxiety that comes along with it. Quitting your job, getting rid of commitments and deciding to go for however long you fancy is incredible, but it also comes with a huge bucket full of emotions. For the past few weeks I have been buzzing with excitement, but at times the nerves creep in. Particularly in the last 7 days.
Every bone in my body is overwhelmed with the prospect of what is to come. I know I’m about to have a crazy adventure and have some of the best times of my life. However, I am stepping hugely outside of my comfort zone. That happy bubble I’ve lived in my whole life is about to be shaken up. The past year has been a very interesting one and I’ve learnt to go with the flow a lot more, but, I am a self confessed control freak so packing my life into a backpack and going around the world thrills me, but also scares the shit out of me.
One of the main reasons I am embarking on this little adventure is so that I can learn even more about myself, and face some of my fears. We all have things that we need to tackle head on, and staying in the same routine and place doesn’t always give you the challenges that you need. So, despite the anxiety that I am feeling in the run up to the big day (13th September), I cannot wait to hop on that plane and live my life! Just 2 more nervous weeks to get through and then the adventure can begin.